the ordinary

1.12.2020


How was your week?  Here, we returned to our ordinary days.  Thor returned to school and piano lessons, my husband returned to work and spent part of the week in Portland, and I held steady with some projects at home.  Wednesday was my Dad's 88th birthday.  I'm so glad he is still in my life and that I get to spend so much time with him.  He is such an inspiration to me.  I started a watercolor class, started knitting again, started a new sourdough adventure, and started journaling again.  

Small ordinary beginnings that feel good.  

I've been thinking a lot about the ordinary and what I want my days to look like, to feel like, and about how I want to feel and how I want to make others feel.  The walls I have put up my whole life have done nothing good for me or my relationships with others.  

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A friend (@EmilyCrofts) shared the following on Instagram this week and I wanted to share it with you, too, about quiet, simple, ordinary, beautiful things.

"It all matters.  That someone turns out the lamp, picks up the windblown wrapper, says hello to the invalid, pays at the unattended lot, listens to the repeated tale, folds the abandoned laundry, plays the game fairly, tells the story honestly, acknowledges help, gives credit, says goodnight, resists temptation, wipes the counter, waits at the yellow, makes the bed, tips the maid, remembers the illness, congratulates the victor, accepts the consequences, takes a stand, steps up, offers a hand, goes first, goes last, chooses the small portion, teaches the child, tends to the dying, comforts the grieving, removes the splinter, wipes the tear, directs the lost, touches the lonely, is the whole thing.  What is most beautiful is least acknowledged.  What is worth dying for is barely noticed."   

~ Laura McBride, in We Are Called to Rise

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  1. I'm curious about the walls you put up...is this something you would feel comfortable sharing more?

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    1. Oh goodness. Where to start. Basically a fear of vulnerability and rejection. Wanting to love and be loved in return, yet always keeping people at arms' length - self protection. These feelings lead me to be defensive and closed, never truly letting anyone in, and doing things that keep people out. With the exception of a few people, I never truly trust in the good I see or feel in friendships/relationships. It's easier to put up a wall than risk feeling hurt; unfortunately, I end up hurting others this way. So damaging to all. (Feeling v. vulnerable putting this out there...)

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  2. I can relate to walls...it doesn't come easy to me to create friendships. I am really focusing on overcoming that in the future. I don't want to be lonely or sad as I age. I want to keep growing and gathering people in. (That quote. Wow. Even the title! We are called to rise. YES!) And your photos are incredible as always.

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    1. Being deep feelers (I know you are one, too) makes it even harder, doesn't it? Here's to us both overcoming it. ♥︎ I don't think I'll ever be a "people person," but I hope to have my core people always around, gather a few more, and to radiate unconditional love and acceptance to all. Thank you for your comments, Tonia. xx

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    2. Oh, I so wish I could reply to both of you! Thank you for choosing to be vulnerable and sharing openly with me. I feel honored that you did, really - thank you! I hear what you are saying. I too have built walls and kept my circle small. I care deeply for my family and have always just had enough bandwidth for them, work and my own self-care. Yet, I know too that I don't want to grow old and lonely. I am so grateful for my new husband or this really would have been my future. I don't know what this looks like really, just keep letting people in and loving back, right? Gosh, we really need a weekend meet-up! Gosh, the coffee and tea we would drink!

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  3. Thank you for asking, and for listening, Denise. ♥︎ I'm so happy for you that you have found your love! A good partner makes all the difference, doesn't it? I, too, struggle with feeling like I don't have any more bandwidth for more than my family, but as I get older I really feel I am missing a lot by not having a community of friends. Yes, a weekend meet-up would be wonderful - it would be so lovely to be "irl" friends, too. (I love that you are blogging more again!) xx

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  4. Lori and Denise, I forgot to check back for this conversation! But I want to say how dear you both are to me as friends in these spaces and I would love to have a chance to sit and have coffee with both of you! I'm keeping these thoughts in mind, about openness, and our desires to not be lonely, how we might encourage each other as we go. I can certainly relate to what both of you have said. I know that being as I am, so sensitive and so low energy, that I will never have a huge circle of people around me, but that doesn't mean I have to be closed off. More muscles to strengthen and stretch. Love to you both. xo

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